Where was Lapidus?

I have been a terrible blogger and LOST fan this week.

First of all, while everyone was tweeting about crying after that torturous Jin and Sun scene, I said, "What happened on LOST is just starting to sink in - get it?"

I was trying to make light of a sad situation to make it not as sad (which, for the record, did not work), and I probably lost a few twitter followers in the mean time.

But I mean… it was kind of funny.

ANYWAY. Let's talk about this super intense episode, after I apologize for not posting until now (I was in Washington DC most of last week with unreliable internet and a full schedule working for Save The Children - I know, excuses excuses).

Pearl, I was the same way about Jin and Sun's deaths. I mean, the whole hands floating apart in silhouette with the flashing red light in the background thing was heart-renching enough, but seeing HURLEY cry was just - gah. Saddest episode yet.

And I felt a little bad for Sayid, I mean, crazy monster-thing he's turned into or not, he sacrificed himself at a moment's notice to save everyone else, and then his death was totally upstaged by Jin and Sun.

I hadn't thought about Lapidus being dead, actually. I assumed he just hadn't washed up yet. I do remember when they were walking on the beach after the sun exploded I said aloud, "Hey where the heck is Lapidus?", but as no one else (on the show) seemed concerned about him, either he's not dead, or they just never really liked him much in the first place. I hope it's the former.

I hate when a character dies on this show, because with them, dies a whole slew of questions centered around them. I still had questions about Boone, and Shannon, and Charie, and Libby, and Eko etc. etc., but once they died, there was very little chance we'd find out anything else about them. Not that I have many burning Jin and Sun or Sayid questions (and I suppose they are still alive in the LAX timeline so they're only half dead, really) but it still sucks a little knowing they're just gone. It's like every time someone dies, we find out their story was never really as important as the ones for the people who are still alive. Kind of like once your name is crossed off the list of candidates, no one needs you to be alive anymore.

Pearl, I am the same way about things I love ending. I get sad when a show I like, or a book series I enjoyed, or even a game I've been playing is over, because even though we still have the fandom and the community and the shared experience of having watched this show together in common with a lot of people, we'll never get to sit down and watch a new episode together. We'll still have things to theorize about, but we'll have to accept the fact that no new information is coming.

It's nice to know we have this blog, and lots of people going through this with us, but I think we're all allowed to be a little sad right now. And very, very excited.

I agree that the flash sideways was boring. I feel like if we don't see Desmond or Faraday, it's probably going to be boring. They were on SUCH a good kick, too, with the last few episodes, and then this one was right back to Jack-and-Locke-sob story I don't care let's see Desmond try to kill more people.

I've been wondering about what makes someone eligible to be a candidate. I wonder if someone already IS the candidate and they are just trying to figure out which one it is, or if no one is slated as the candidate, but the remaining names need to prove themselves. I also wonder if someone can BECOME the next Jacob while other candidates are still alive, or if it really is a "last one standing" sort of deal. I hope not.

Things I noticed in the episode and wrote down in my trusty notebook:

-Jack said to Locke in the LAX timeline (about the surgery): "You're a candidate."

-Sawyer stealing the gun made me loll.

-"I hope you find what you're looking for." I AM SO SICK OF THE REPEATED CATCHLINES. OMG LOST. WE DON'T NEED TO BE SPOONFED.

- Claire took that guy OUT. She is so badass.

-Sayid's death scene was pretty epic, aside from Jin/Sun's way more epic one following immediately after. I loved when Jack said, "There is no Sayid." Woah.


I can't wait for next week.

Swan.